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Last night i beat pokemon colosseum while watching austin powers goldmember. A canon event that could’ve happened at any point in the last 20 years. It’s kinda funny to have an experience that feels so ancient, but that’s how it is living every single day. Humans have been alive for years and years and we’ve been doing the same old shit the whole time.

get high ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ i can’t do this shit it’s not my kind of responsibility but her on the other hand she has a certain air of convincing about her that is just....

But in reality i know that the next step is to ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ and be like hey girl what the fuck? Like why not ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ in like over a week? Is it something i said? Or are you just busy and forgot?

I’m just sick of other people in a really real way right now. There are some things that only…. Like i just wanna…. I don’t even know actually. I just want to….. There’s nothing i really want to do, to be honest. All the shit i try to do is just really, like….. I dont know.

Likeeeee im writing and shit and im doing my best ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ but none of the things im saying are really that good or like ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ and even if i were to ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ with someone there are only a few options for how to do that.

One is to ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ which just feels, like, humiliating and way too vulnerable for me to ever stomach or, like, really consider.

And even then its like okay i can imagine the feeling of ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ and then its like okay what do i do next? Just nothing? I guess nothing, yeah. Whatever.

I guess maybe it’s about just like ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ and then being done with it and like yeah… but then im like, no i have bigger aspirations than just ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ going to give two fucks about.

So, then, maybe the answer is to just do some kind of ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ . Like ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ my own thing…. Like a ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ or something.

But that idea makes me like look up at the sky and shake my head in disbelief at how stupid you could be to even suggest something like that. ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ is the most humiliating ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ you could ever ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ .

That’s tough. It’s just really tough.

Like no im not ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ and no im not ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ . I’m not going to try expanding my ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ . If anything im just going to ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ for my thirty-six ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ who probably lost the ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ .

The only thing i can think of is like someone ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ who i dont want to ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ and then being humiliated ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ by them. Like, ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ is the most humiliating thing i can even imagine right now.

And like the more i talk about this and like talk about stuff in general the more im like bitch you should ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ right now like you should probably ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ like twice a week or something but fuck that i dont ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ anymore just like i dont believe in ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ .

Like you want me to ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ so that what i can like ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ to some ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ and like be careful about what i ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ and shit and just like whatever blah blah?

No, i’m supposed to ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ like i can ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ on my own and im fine and shit like that.

i could at least just like try ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ has to say and be like hey ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ real quick and like lets ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ shit for a second. Why not? Yeah that could lead to something nice. Lets do that actually. I think that could be pretty good ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ . okay yeah lets try it out. Ugh. that feels good ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ where it can go. Okay ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ ████ █████ ████████ ████████ ████ go.