There is a..... There is a. There is a. There is a.

That’s not..... I wasn’t trying to finish that sentence. Usually i can finish the sentence. It just autocompletes. I would’ve said there is a...... there are places i remember..... But i already said that yesterday.... So i say nothing at all.....

I’m in the on-call room with T--. O--- and T---- just left to go to conference. T---- being sort of.... Errrr....

I’m getting hawthorne effected right now. Affected? I think it’s sort of, errr.... The grammar, i’m just thinking about and considering the grammar. I guess thinking about and considering are the same.

In any case, i’m not interested in hawthorning myself, so let me just take a breather. You can still write without having to describe everything happening to you and whatever. So let me just settle in here.

My baby wants a baby. Throwing it on the ism.

I got nothing else of substance to really even say, to be honest with you. The babies are still here. I’m going to see them through—or, they’re going to see me through, rather. They’ll see me out of this place. Tomorrow, the last time i’ll ever have to expereince 7am in a hospital, most likely..... Or, who knows .... Maybe i will? As some other role.... It’ll be my last time as a budget neonatologist. Budget as in i’m not getting paid to be here or do any of this labor, but i still do it, and there are still expectations of me..... And shit.

But the nurse A---, who i always saw in passing but never knew or introduced myself to, came right up to me this morning and said she was coming to my show. And that she was going to get everyone in the nick you to come too or something. Damn, okay, the word is already spreading. That’s crazy.