Here I am. We’re so on the precipice, bro. It just fucking hit me. Oh my god. This is actually monumental. This is a moment in time. We’re living it. I don’t even have to tell you or remind you to live it, because you are! We are! We’re here!

Oh wow. I really got sicked the fuck out by a▒▒ and a▒▒ this week. I’m so over it. Which came at precisely the right time. It’ll be a good long time before I see them again. Thank god. No offense. It’s just that they’re too insane. Too neurotic. Too tuned into the wrong things. Crazy people, basically.

old habits But I’m here at c▒▒▒ by myself. Perfect. We love to see it, don’t we? Thank god. Listening to some music. I saw R▒▒▒▒▒’s story on instagram and felt myself really actually caring about his music opinions. I think I have a crush on him, obviously, but this one’s gonna be different, I swear. I’m over the whole love thing. Not gonna do too much like dm him saying “hey I’m in love with you” or anything like that. Maybe I could follow him on spotify, but maybe that’s too transgressive.

Change tempo. Was getting too weird. That’s the type of behavior and thinking I’m trying to avoid.

What else is on the ol’ noggin? I went for a walk before I did anything else today (besides smoking weed, obviously I had to do that first) and it was a really good one. Noticing things about physics. Tuning into physics in a different way than I have in the past.

Accidentally just yelled “leave me alone” when I saw a text from a▒▒.

Slowly bring myself back to equilibrium. No need to be so angry, but also no need to just course correct far away from it. I’m no longer looking for major solutions to the problems. The physics, dude, the physics. I can’t force someone into a different equilibrium than they’re in.