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you and I will be like a couple of cosmonauts except with way more gravity than when we started off It’s a tough nut to crack at times, this life shit. Sometimes you feel like there’s more to be cracked, and you wonder what you could be doing differently. By the time you start wondering things like that, you’re already out of it. You’re already hopelessly lost to ever cracking the nut. Life is the kind of nut that needs to be soaked. You’re not going to crack it by brute force and overthinking. It’s going to pretty much crack when it wants to crack. Sure, you can keep going for it, try again every now and then, but when you’ve given it your best shot and the nut isn't cracking, that is not your signal to try, try again. Look, dude, your acetylcholine is starting to build up in all those neuromuscular junctions, and bruh, you gotta give it some time to clear out, deadass, like you actually gotta. You actually gotta give the nut some time. Time is the missing ingredient for all of your recipes for success and lives worth living. If it’s not ready then it’s not time? Or no, what’s the quote——if it’s not okay then it’s not over. like yeah okay fine sure whatever take it easy man yeah I believe you I love you you're great you look like linda evangelista and shit And iiiiiiiiiiiii keep thinking about linear time. I’m thinking about it so much. I tried to explain my disdain for linear time yesterday, and it didn’t work, like, at all. hard to explain I think it may have partially worked, like it worked somewhat, but when I tried being my honest, schizo self to the general public at the gathering yesterday, it was sorta just crickets. You gotta know your audience, and that audience yesterday was not the one to be receiving bits about linear time, to be frank, fair, honest, and sound. "I can’t stand linear time." "What do you mean by that?" "Like, you know... linear time, and how it’s so, just, like, linear?" "Yeah, I guess, but what do you actually mean? Like yeah, it’s linear, so what do you mean?" "Like, first of all, when did we decide that time had to be based on numbers? Like what it that about?" "Huhhhhhhh, okayyyy, ummmm, well, like, it’s a number of hours that goes by in a day, is it not? Why would we not use numbers?" "I don't know. Why would anyone not do anything?" I get so tired I get tired I am tired I have become tired. there was nothing tongue in cheek about any of the anythings that have taken place and are continuing to put spacebos It’s spacebosing Kangaroo versus robot I believe he is down too far into the holeii t h I n k talkmlmlmff of bacterka kts a theater it’s a chorus of bacteria Do you ever let your stream of consciouesnses rip but it onlhy weirerrd ljjjjjjjjj the ants are swarming that dead hornet nest I lol I did it again I hwas having real thoguths and not writing them down then sorta starting in media res which is a fine place to start to continue to do anything In media res let sjuu I jjjjjj patrejjjjjjjjjjjj I ilke t his goldilocks ass kinda life lik its not too anything fo real bruh A mthoh in my mind’s eye A screen protecint us nionnnnnn mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmkay I sevejvvj Bulestkdkdddsss gbulwarks good night SO TIRED SorRY CANT GO ON!!!!! THAT’S LLLLl... I fear tomorrow vortex