late night Now

writing, finally.

What was I so afraid of? Genuinely, what was it? Was it ███████ and her coldness? Alas, what are you gonna do? Here we are, the next day, having basically.... gotten over it, dare I say? Am I over it? I might be over it. Because, like ████ said, the phone really does work boooooth ways. it does! There's a dragonfly. It just zoomed in here, hovered for a second——actually exactly one second——and then was gone.... Those things are fucking apex predators as far as I can remember. scary innit? Anyway..... anyway.... ant crawling around on the hose again. Books... books today. some books todayyy... some books today... got back into reading the deluge and I’m enjoying it... I’m ennjjoyiinnggg............ Yeah dude. I applied for another job today lol. I can’t stop doing it, can i? I’m addicted to applying for jobs. I’m not interested in writing right now. Sometimes it’s more of a reading day than a writing day, and today is one of those days. But first I’ll tell you about my reading earlier today. One thing I like about the deluge is, uhh.... that was a sentence that I started without knowing how I would finish.... it. What do I like about the book? I like the intensity. I like the modernity. I like that you can tell it was written in this decade. I think that’s cool. The book is now like four years old. What do you think the author has been doing in that time? Do you think he has a family or something? But what I like about it beyond its modernity is how it is descriptive and how you can get lost in it. It is a page-turner. It wants you to keep reading it. I’m now thinking about dostoesvsky, and that led me to ████████ ██████, and that led me to getting in touch with her for █████ ███ █████████, and then that led me to how I should have beeeen in better touch with ██ ████ ██████ ████████, and perhaps that could have saved me from a lot of the strife and turmoil that I ended up experiencing... and then I thought about that time I was texting █████ ██████-█████ and stuff. lol remember that? What a time that was, wasn’t it? What a time that was, indeed. point So yeah. That’s where I’m at, and I’m still not wanting to write anymore. I’m done writing for now. See you later and sorry if this is coming across as neglecting the point which is the point. I’m just like.... more reading than writing today and that's obviously fine and okay and I’m not on anyone’s schedule but my own at the moment, so let’s continue babes. Here goes. Yes. repeat