I think i may have identified the source of yesterday’s slight anxiety, and it is that I lied on rounds. I made it seem like I had examined the baby’s ostomy, because I said it was still looking good, but I hadn’t actually lain eyes on it. Now is the time to forgive myself and recognize that there was no consequence besides misleading people. I can forgive myself for it while also recognizing that in the future it’s better not to lie. I already learned that lesson from R-- on surgery last year. She said to never say that you did an exam if you actually didn’t, and I tried to push it this year, and I know better than that at this point, not only from a patient safety perspective but more importantly because of the right speech thing, and the precept that thou shall not tell a lie.

So this is me apologizing to myself and to the universe. I’m admitting my mistake for posterity and for processing and getting myself to a point of forgiveness. I forgive you, and we can only hope that the universe will as well. Remains to be seen!

Also shoutout [guy]. Still dead, I presume?