This dude is making me nervous. It’s this white man gunner med student who’s just like..... wandering around..... standing around in the room. Okay, he left. I feel better now. Good. i don’t need to self-soothe with writing anymore, I don’t think. Thanks for being there.

Now i’m still in this room queening out and just being here. H----- is to my left, working diligently on her pre-rounding, and then N---- is to my right being a memelord. She really is pretty funny. I was actually laughing really hard a few minutes ago at this whole bit that I had with her. Just pushing her buttons and stuff and her reaction being perfect. Okay, wait, we see each other for real. Love when that happens.

Now i’m gonna read that al jazeera article about nightmare bugs.

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i’m somewhat stuck between a pebble and a medium place. That’s how i’d descrbibe it right now, not quite a rock and not quite hard. It’s pebble and medium.

Basically, my situation is that ummmmm, uhhhh, the med school function is tonight, and i was gonna hang out with A-- and Y-- before it, and it’s like.... Okay, so the timing works out as follows: we have to get to the function at 7, which means we have to leave [neighborhood] at 6:15 or so, so like..... If I were to leave right now to go back to my apartment, i would get there at 3:45, and then i would have to come back and leave again by 5:45 at the absolute latest, which would make no sense. That would give me two hours of being home, but really, we would want like one hour, at least, to be with Y-- and A--, so it doesn’t make much sense, does it, and also, the ethics lady doctor—

Ummmmmm, what was i even saying before? I have no idea, to be honest with you. Something about how i shouldn’t go back to my apartment, and i wouldn’t have been able to even if i wanted because—no, that’s not true. If i asked these residents if i could go home they would’ve said yes, of course you can go home, ---, you’ve done a great job today. But instead, we have an ethics lecturer who came in at the eleventh hour and said 'hey, i’m coming back at three thirty to give you guys a lecture,' so yeah, she’s gonna go ahead and come back, which would mean i wouldn’t be able to leave until four or so, and at that point it’s like okay, so i get there at four thirty at the very earliest, to the apartment, and then what, have to head out right away.

So it’s looking like we’re going to leave our backpack in this room, possibly, overnight. We’ll leave this shit in there overnight so that i can be all by myself with my person and clothing going into this function, and i won’t have to worry about holding a damn backpack.

Ummmmm, where was i. I keep getting distracted. S----- asked me what i was typing with the font so small, and i told her it’s just my stream of consciousness, S-----. It’s funny when people see this side of me, because this is really the main and realest and most lived-in side. The stream of consciousnesses are all i do. They’re all i’m known for by me in my mind. That’s what i would say, clock that tea, etc. Yeah, i’m still here and stuff.

They asked me to start playing music, and i’m now playing music. I love being on aux so much. Let’s fucking go, brother. I love this shit so much.

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Wait, i actually do really like this team, and they like me. Wait, we’re really functioning as a nice little superorganism here. Great work, everyone. They are going to.... Well, S----- said that she doesnt—

Ummmm, i got interrupted by S----- herself dropping her airpods on the floor and a couple papers as well. We’re now just here in the on-call room. I’m here with uhhh, T-- (i wanted to call him paul for some reason), and then O---, and S----- just stepped out for who knows what reason. Talking to a parent or something, presumably. We’ll see what that ends up being, maybe, or maybe we won’t see it.

Either way, i’m sorta just here, hehe. We don’t know what the rest of the day will have in store. Will i finally make out with someone hot? Or someone at least like a 5? We’ll see. It remains to be seen, and it might just be seen. We’ll have to see.

I can’t forget to bring my wallet to the function. I’ll be sure to do that once i’m getting my backpack in order, laptop in the backpack and backpack set up and shit and just like.... Yeah. i’ll keep it like that. And stuff. What.... Uhhhh... yeah.

Sorry, you know that feeling of being on aux where you’re on aux and you’re sitting there and stuff and things of that sort? Yeah, that’s how i’m feeling now, where you’re i—

Are you reeling in the years? Stowing away the time?

T-- said how are you ever going to leave this place with all the friends you made here? And it’s a good question, and a really nice sentiment as well. i really have found a way to bring my personality to the workplace, finally.