im going to sleep but im fully prepared to be awake for a little longer than i normally would be upon going to bed because i was in front of screens all fuckin day and i didn’t get any wind down time oh and i also didn’t KO myself with weed even though i could feel it calling to me

[redacted] accusing me of smoking weed like no bro i didn’t i actuallly didn’t this time

He’s just like smelling all kinds of red herrings now

this is why i say collective psychosis this is exactly why i say we all have our own distinct flavor of psychosis nowadays

You’d literally have to have psychosis to like survive and thrive in this capitalist world there’s way too much shit you have to ignore

And HONESTLY i would love to ask [redacted] or even like fuckin [redacted] how they manage to live their lives knowing theyre doing nothing to help the people in the world who are trapped in the karmic muck

Like what the hell are yall actually doing did you ever have any plans to try to make things better for anyone else? I don’t think you ever did tbh like it doesn’t seem like you did or do

You want to be doctors for these americans who have enough money and power to seek out your care right? Like it’s just so boring

I could never treat the sick americans it’s just not right i would hate it so much to know that the empire is damaging these people and i’ve made it my job to try to fix that damage? Bithch it’s fucking insane and just like sort of [bleep]

Like idk i think im thinking about fanon, well obviously i am, and how he quit working at the hospital where it could be argued he was doing amazing groundbreaking work, because he felt like by treating the fcuking officers who tortured algerians he was indirectly contributing to french rule and shit… and what did he do he jjoined the fucking FLN. like yeah!!! When you see all the scars left by the empire isn’t the most reasonable thing to want to do destroy the empire? Or at least break free from it? Yeah break free from it i think is more accurate i guess. But breaking free and destroying…… there’s a reason why break is in the phrase break free. Like in order to be free you have to break something. like it starts with a literal break. We need to break this shit open, or just break it altogether. There’s nothing inside anyway.

My butthole is so fucking itchy i honestly couldnt tell you whats going on with it

Like now im having these kind of like tenesmus-y symptoms idk if thats the word for what im feeling but it does feel like there’s often something in there.. Idk what. Like my stomach often making rumblies when i dont really recall it doing that in the past? I feel like…. I don’t remember ever having this much awareness about what my insides were doing

But soon it will be over soon it will all be over