He had it coming is the thing. Love him or hate him, he had it coming. He was poisoning the water. It was going to happen in one way or another, and i’m glad it happened. I’m glad it happened, because it happened. We have to accept the reality in which we live. I’m also pro political violence. I’m pro violence—of course i am—because, bitch, we try to pretend we’re not in the animal kingdom, but we are in the animal kingdom, and █████████ ██ ███ ██████ ███████, ███ ████ ██ ███████ ████ ██████. jesus christ dude the moralizing is so insane.

what happened? It makes me realize more and more every day that america is a sick, sick country. And i know the others are using that line to refer to the fact that such a thing could happen, which i can grant, but i mean that it’s sick in the sense that people will come down so strongly against this one act of violence when they don’t have fucking shit to say about other forms of violence. It’s soooo nimby coded. People will not even pay attention to the news about all the people getting killed by the dozens in gaza every day, but when one fucking conservative bitch gets shot in america, they’re like 'ohhhhh welllllll any violence is just wrong.'

It started really early in the day, actually, with Y▒▒▒. It started with Y▒▒▒, and i love the guy, but he started off strong with 'the news yesterday was crazy. yeah, no matter what, no matter who it is, we shouldn’t do political violence, and i hope we’re not entering an era of political violence.'

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It’s hard living in a nation of ███████, and i say that in the kindest way i can muster. Everyone on facebook posting all their virtue-signaling █████████ little tirades, they’re all █████████. ██████ ███ ██████ ██’█ “██████ ██” ████ ██ ███ ██████ ██ ████ ████████ ███ █████████ ██ ███████ █████████. ████ ██ ███ █████ ███ ██████ ██ ███ ████ ███████. ███ ████ ████ █ ████, ████, ██ ███████ ██ ██ ███████. ████ █ ████: ██ ███ █████████ ███ █████, ███ ██ ███ █████ ██ ████ ████ ██████.

It’s literally just causality, guys. It’s literally just causality. Let’s all calm down. It’s casuality. ██ ███ ██ ██████ ███████ ██ ████████. No turning back.

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So yes, ██ ████████ ██, ██ ███ ██ ███████ ██████, ██ ███ █ ███████ ████, and he died doing what he loved, and doing what he was doing the whole time. He died as he lived: being a cunt and making a bad faith argument. In favor of guns. █████ ██ █████. His last words... i might always remember them, but maybe it’s just recency bias: '████████ ██ ███ ████████ ████ ████████?' And then right away, a pop. ████ ██ ███████ ██████ ██ █ ████ ███ ██. ████ ██ ███, ███████. █ ████ ████ ██ █████ ████ █████ ██. █ ████ █ █████ ██ ███ ███ ██ ████ █████ ██ ███ █████ ███ ██ ████████ ███ ███ █████ ██████ ███ ██ ██████ ███ ███ ███ █████ █████ ████ █████████ ████ █████ ████ ███ █████'█ ██████████ ███ ████. █ ██████ ███ ███ ██████ ███ █████ ███ ████ ████████ █████ █████ ███. █’█ ████ ████’██ ████ '███████,' █’█ ████ █████’█ █ ██████ ███ ██ ███████████. ████ █████ █ ████████ ██████ ██ ███ ███, ███ ██ ████’█ ███ ████ ███ ███, ███ ████ ██ ███ ███████ ██████ █████. ███ ██████ █████████ '█████—' ███ ███ ████ ███ ████ █████ ███ ████ ██ ███ ████. He got fucking killed. And, shit, that’s all. He got fucking killed; that’s it.

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In any case, i wanna get high and not be part of this whole debate right now.

Tomorrow is friday of week two. It’s already the end of week two, which is kind of insane, and then we’ll be halfway through, which is also insane. Month. A month is not a very long time, brother, you know what i mean? Yeahhhh, it’s all good. It’s all going really good.

M▒▒ Y▒▒▒▒ said 'great job, ant, and i’m sure our paths will cross again' and i said 'i hope so.' He was a nice guy, a nice guy, and i won’t lie: on the elevator ride down to the first floor after that conversation, i felt really accomplished and fulfilled and happy. He said good job! I know i don’t want to do medicine anymore, but shit, the praise will always be nice to hear, you know? So yay! Great job, ant!