Pants down in Krakow

I have my pants down because uhhhh you probably don’t care. I’m in my final alone hour. The last time being alone, forever. Until who knows when.... I’m in Krakow, and honestly, same mistakes tinder makes me feel terrible about everything. I should’ve never fucked around and got on that app again. I think it’s better to give it up, probably...... Do I have anything insightful to say about poland so far? Everything seems to be 20 PLN. I paid that for the train..... on the train from the airport,,,,, the train attendant saw my ticket and was like "that’s for the bus." "oh, for the bus," I said. I’m still fresh off the boat, and it shows, I’m sure. But it would be nice to have some kind of cheeky, congenial conversation with someone around these parts. Do you think that’ll happen soon? I’m looking forward to it, if so... I happen to think it might happen soon! I think it might, I think it might. In any case, ██████ is coming soon, and that’ll be epic as shit. There’s a lot to get up to here. Memories yet to be made and stuff. Euphoria yet to be experienced. Movie yet to be filmed. And all that jazz. But yeah. Walking around krakow, feeling more like I have a lay of the land. I’m surprised at how much of a difference it makes. Also, the fact that, you knooooooooow, the fact that, uhhhhhh.... I check my watch, and it’s almost nooooon, new york time. Dare I say jet lag will not get me? I don’t know. I’m sure it will somehow, in some way, in some form, get me. I had the same kind of hubris, I think, last year with ███████ in Greece. remember? But this is six hours ahead rather than seven hours....... It was some 30+ year old twink telling me he loves Dostoevsky and that notes from underground is so him.

Girl that’s not the point

of the book. It’s not supposed to be.... Never mind. Maybe it is the point. Fuck it. I’ve been having these thoughts of like totally abandoning society and not being an operative or participating member... But remember how I tried to do that in medicine and stop drinking the kool-aid while still going through the motions and it became paradoxically somehow harder? You gotta buy in, at least somewhat, to have a good time in our world. And it’s not like I don’t want to be around people! never that It’s just the capitalism of the situation which I think I find so reprehensible. But it was capitalism that allowed me to navigate to these unfamiliar lands, so what have we there? trueright I’m a hypocrite in many ways, I’m sure. I’m sure I’m quite a hypocrite.... One of the first things I noticed about this apartment is that uhhhh.... there’s an ant trap by the window. It’s like... really sinister, actually. hmm... To see that they are technically, in some ways....... below us on the food chain. Like, we have come up with a way to trick them into getting killed... but as far was we know, they’ve done no such thing, come up with no such way of tricking us. later