Oh, shit, bro, i think we made it. Or something like making it. I think this is something like making it. This is probably what it would feel like. When you feel like your best is enough, i think that’s what success feels like. i think that’s what you want to feel, isn’t it: to be like 'okay, wait, so i think i genuinely enhanced vibes today.' like people are comfortable being themselves around me, and for that i’m very grateful. now just have to convince B--- i can hang.
And the funny thing is that right now i’m just excited to show up tomorrow so i can continue developing the dynamics. Y---- will be back. we can have a Y---- and E---- day. that sounds cute, Y---- and E---- andddd uhhh B---. that’ll be a good group.
If anything, i feel this
that B--- will somehow look at me differently, but this is just me being elio from cmbyn. just a fucking sensitive young man. And with that, i’m putting on the damn cmbyn soundtrack.
Now i get to listen to one of the greatest movie soundtracks of all time while i sit on this roof as the sun sets and the wind blows and i know that for the first time today, i get to let it all hang out. This is a good feeling to have, especially when you’ve had a day that feels like it could be worth unpacking, because you spent it among humans, the creatures you’re set up to best understand, and you are an anthropologist at this point, aren’t you? Suddenly unafraid of the wasp who just came over to check out your keyboard, when you used to have this vague debilitating fear of wasps...... i suppose this is the part in the movie when you look at the protagonist and think 'oh man, here are all the classic beats in a coming of age story.,..,,..' and the movie is called
I think i’m hitting the stride, as it were. This ain't so bad, mama.... It ain't so bad after all, is it? It’s not so bad. We can do it. We are doing it, actually, now, in fact. As a matter of fact, we really are doing it now. This is what it feels like to be doing it, and i am doing it, and we are doing it.
So, shit, yeah, that’s what’s going on.