Sitting, like smoking, ought to be done in moderation. And moderation does not mean the same, moderate amount every day. It means some days you have moderately more, some days moderately less or none at all, and then some days you don’t know what to do with yourself you’re all over the place life is really happening to you you’re really feeling it all you’re out and about you’re with your friends you’re doing all kinds of things. bend And then the thing of there being days when nothing happens, and then, uhhh... yeah, whatever that quote is. Weeks when years happen or something, you know what I mean? Whatever. Some kind of napoleon thing, I’m sure. Something like that. And by that I mean it was said by some guy who is now dead and who was probably in some kind of war. I don’t care about those men. We’re so far from them. But we’re not, because war is still happening right now. There is war happening now. There is war happening now. There is war happening now. There is war happening now . there is swar hppapening now. There is war happening now. War is ahappening now. Theererere are wars happening now. War is happening now. War is happening now. War now war is happening now there is a war now there are wars now there is warring now people have warred people will war peoelp are warring. People have warren. People wlill war. People are warring. There is war. Weeeee are in wars. We are in a war. there is a war.... we are paying for the war. The war is happening with our knowngingnigngng goncocnonsennt. How do you consent to all of this, well, I don’t know, you can't consent to everything anyway. How do we unconsent from it, we don’t ask that, we don’t ask that, we don’t ask that, we don’t ask that, we don’t ask that, we don’t ask that, we don’t ask that, because there is nothing to say, no answer to the question, there is no answer to the question. It comes back mu. It’s another mu. It’s mu, it’s just mu. Forget about it. It’s mu. Mu!!! It’s all just one big mu. It can all really all all all just be one big mu. Is that what you want? One big mu? That feels like it sounds good to me. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening... war is happening. War is happening. You can’t mu reality. You can’t mu that. War is happening war is happening war ia s s happening war hissisisi happening war is happening war is happening no way around it. There’s no way around that fafafct off ff fwar happening there’s no koan at the end of it there’s no lesson learned there’s no ohhhh I get it moment it’s just that war ahsppensinigng. War is hhhhappening. War is happneining. War ias s happeniening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is heppappppepepepennieninginggg. War is happening. War iss hpappppenenning. War is happening.g..g... war is happening. War is happening. Warr rrrr is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening ... war is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. War is happening. Palestine settelteltletllelrelrssrrss. There’s warfare ee in it, there’s warfare in it theyerere’rs still warfare in it there’s warfare in the everyday there’s warfare in the annoyances there’s wareffafarareree in just sitting there on your four wheeler there’sssssssss war in that thtere’s war in the inditimtididiation in the surveillance ce ce c eof course theres’ w ar in the survelliailanice of course there’s war there’s war ain inin in in the communities they’re springing up and defending with the threat of the israeli law what does that even mean israeli law at this point what does it even mean does it even have a meaning is it meaninglesssss? israleleleliii law israeli law israeli law it’s not really turning up anything here. there’s not really anything to it. There's not really a point in using that in any argument. Theee idea of israeli law is about as contrived and concerned with actual worlrlrlrdldrldlrdlrydyrldylylyly occurrances with reality as isralelelel itself. Uhhhh..... is this thing on I hope this thing isn’t on I feel like the mic is getting a little too... ummm... it’s asking me to stop talking. Something’s asking me to stop talking. and that’s the self-surveeiillllance. The imperial boomerang is when the tactics we are using to subdue "them" end up getting used on "us" as well, as in the case of surveillance. We use surveillance on every other country we’re keeping a close eyeye on everybody we use it to “win wars” we use it to uhh you know. Yeah. But the role of surveillance in our own lives, right, right, the imperial boomerang, the survelillance turning around and getting used on us, too. I was at the dispensary the other day in ohio (I knonw iw know wi kwnown wion wi wknwownk stoip stmotmokigng stops tmokgin weed stpopop being high stop getting ghigh stop stop sopt psot pos tp stpget hele pf tfe t ge tlp get kpepl io knmow shitutt up I’m fine it’s okay stop that stop that right now leave me alone stop it stop it stop it it’s fine I’m just using it) uhhh at the dispensary and the guy... man he was just the best guy ever. iiiii just... man he was just so enthusiaiisistic and effusive with goodnaturedness and he had a pride weed shirt on and some pride pins on some kind of lanyard like dude was going all in for pride but still you know.... he just had this way of still carrying himself as a man that made me be like... hmm are you an ally? Or are you just really really a man and it’s true that men can actually be gay and not everyone has this thing where they secretly think they’re trans. Anyway the guy was like every move you make is being recorded in here. From the moment you pull into the parking lot to right now, you’re being recorded the whole time. And I’m like huh???? Huh..... why am I the one being surveilled now? I thought we jjsust did that on our enemeiesms? But no, the american people are the second enemy to american government. The boomerang of it all, the whole nature of the boomerang is to go and come back, and the other whole nature of it, the one we don’t actually talk about as much, is that it’s also a weapon. It is a weapon, right? I actually have no idea. I’m just making shit up so I can grandstand on this topic from a little higher up. But that shit is a WWEAAPPPPPON, and it does hurt us. boom And my exhibit A is this whole entire thing this whole project of watching myself and reportingggg what I see in there. See how much self-correction, self-SURVEEILLLANCE there is? This is an age of self-survilelelellllance, which is the third and forgotttten thrust of the boomeragnggngg..... it’s when the imperaliilall subjects not only get struck by the boomerang, but the boomerang gets stuck INSIDE of them, so that they end up being the one who keeps the boomeragnggng going around in there. It just keeps on going and goigng and goingggggg. It hurts us, but it’s also ... we need it. We see all kinds of progaganda, like, "BOOMERANGS GOOD@!!! Everyone start using boomerangs," so that we’ll see them as an american thing, like it’s so uniquely american for us to use boomerangs, there’s a sense of pride in it, and that boomerang now lives inside of you, they don’t even neeed to throoowwww it anymore, you’re just going to keeeeep throwing it at yourself.... that’s the daamamage wrought by it... by war, I guess. Is this still about war? Is it about war? It’s still about war. There’s still. A war happening. I can hear the sound of a plane, and I live in a city where you don’t have to worry about whether the sound of the plane comes with a bomb. I’m not in a city like that. I’m in america where our taxes go to shitty teenagers who have fallen into one of the wrieieiridest knownwnnwnwwnnnwnnnnnn propppaganda spweweing........ uerrrr......... we’re sending our tax dollars to israeli teens and expat americans who are setting up colonies in Palestine. We’re doing it with our money. We’re spending our money,.... we’re. e er e ree.e.... our money is going over to it. Our money is buying the weapons and our money is also building these fuckass hotels in the colonies and they’re buildidindinginginggg gnggggngngnngngngn gngngngnngngngn gngngngngngnngngng just the most beautiful compounds imaginable they’re building beautiful beautiful stuff over there we are making it happen folks we are really buying a new world, we are doing colonization as it wassssssss intendeddddddddd.... to suck out all the life from a place and put up, in its place, some stupid bullshit that’s going to lead to further atomization of the inhaibiibibitatnantss and will require from them a ssssssssssertain type of viovlenceececececeecee that can only come with having so much privilege. It’s the quiet kind. You don’t have to actually hurt anyone anymore. You can be violent to them withotuotuotuttutoututut even opening your mouth. You can be violent just by BIENEINEG somewhereere..... and our tax dollars... we’re buying it. We’re buiying their houses. They’re getting built right now, in rows. They’re getting built in rows. Families are moiving in. people are fucking. The earth is getting repopulated all the time. The colony is a place for the settlers to have babies and repopulate the earth. Look at who the earth is getting repopulated with. War is happening war is ahapepepeningn war is happening war is ahpepning war is happening wwwar is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening warrrr is happening war is happening war is happening war is happepepening war is happening war is happening war is happening rwrwarararwarwarar is happening war is happenignn war is happening wwwar is happening war is happenigngng war is ahpepening war is ahpepeningng war is happening war is ahppapppeneinging war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happnenieng war is happening war is happening war is happeininng. War still happens here after all this time of america being a country american bbeeeeeeing the colony you know hithirteeen original colonies. And we’re celebrating two hundred and fifty years. That’s the Kind of number that makes you wanna google how long the roman empire lasted, to see if the expiry date is coming sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon. wwar is happening war is happening. And after all that timeme, so many generations have gone byyyyyyyyyyy sinceeeeeeeeeeee whatever my great great ggreat great g fr r e at. G r ea t eg e g ar e ag e ag er a tt a grandmparents were uhhmm.... doing. When they were colonizing this place. Because at one point it was myyyyyyyyyyyyy family doing the antoaoagonizing and intimidating of the natives wasn’t it? Was ittttt? Wasntt ttit.... I guessss..... I don’t know. There’s no way to know what they were doing. Herhthere’s no way ffororifirjifjr.f...fr.f..rf.....f.r.... but it does make one wonder about one’s place in all of it. mammeskeksksss one wonder how one can even speak about things when one is doing so many other things. How can you speak so much when you also are doing so much? Why you not be able to see everything? Why can't I see everything/?? I close my eyes to see better and still see nothing.. I see nothing I see mu. iiii think about my genenneticiicc degeneracy too long and I start to get real suicidal real fast. There comes a point uhhh.... no. I don’t mean that. I don’t mean i literally want to kill myse.f.flff. that’s not an option for many reasons, for many reasons. for many reasons, killing myself is not an option and I would never consider it. I’m not considering it, I don’t consider it. There was a time, there were times in the past when I did, but now is not one of those times. I do not consider it and I will not consider it. But I mean, there comes a point when you talk about replacement and you talk about colonization and you realize that one simple way to get around it is to simply........ .......... return to how things were before. But you can’t... it’s permanently... it’s damaged, in the form of lives. The native population is not what it was before. There are fewerererrererrrrrrrr native people. there were much more natives before. there were more, and those people would have had kids, and the earth’s population would have changed accordingglglglly, things woud be a little closer to ttttttttthe earth homeostassisisiiss that was here before humans became self-aware or turned on the internet or whatever our real final fall really was................. it was fucking eve, wasn’t it? There’s always a woman to blame. I wawfjwef.we..... no, I got nothing to say on that one. War is happening war is happening I am part of war. I am doing war I am doing a much much much more watered down version of war, it’s the version that is allowed to come,e,e,,, it’s the kind of warfare that’s allowed to be committed in privatetetetetetetetee, in absence, in negative spaces. It’s negative violence. You never interact with the people against whom you’re committing violence. That’s part of what makes it so sinister and so existentially defeating. We never get to see the people who are committing violence against us. There’s violence out there, there’s violence bearing down on you wherever you are whoever you are, there’s violence, there’s war, the war is as much against us as it is against them. Us and them,,,,,,,, that’s the boomerang inside of me... doing the work for them. It’s already in me. I’m good boy. I’m good boy I’m nottt doo anything wrong I’m not do anything wrong I’m you can draft me I’ll do it I’ll fight for this country don’t worry about me these are just words I don’t mean it you know I’m a true american i[m m a apraritriotit I love this country I’d defend it with my life and stuff and yeah..... War is happening war is happening war is happening war is ahppenign war is hapepepepepepening war is happening war is appapepepepening war is happepepnign war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happngingineingign war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happepepening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening. Consistency and integrity are important. You’re distracting yourself you’re still finding ways to dirsitiarcatt yourself keep in line stay in line stay the fuck ininn line stay in line.... stay in line stay in line stay in line stay in line. this is the boomerang, too, but i'd like to use it to......... iiiii’d just like to think it’s my own, and that I’m using it for reasons that I am choosing,,, for ends that I am choosing, for.... yeah. At what point does the self-surveillance change your actual free will? The brain is really a binary system, mostly, but it’s binaries that end up forming really beautiful colors, like pixel art where each pixel has to be one of two things, ONLY: excittattoorory or inhibirototory, and we get soooo many of both all day long in every neuron in our brains we get so so so so so so so many and it ends up creating this beautiful picturem an image of all the exciciiitations and all the inbhibitions on big and small levels, right down again to the level of neuron, who has to decide based on all the inhbiitions and exicicitatiosns expressed to it by neiighobrohoiiningggg neurons through their synapsesss usingngggggg neuororotransmitterssss,,, in that one neuron, a decision is made at the axon hillllocl,,,, based on all of the excitations and inhibitions it receiveedddd,,,,,,,, a decision is made... whthehtherertrrr to fire or not. that simple. Fire as in fire an action potential. they fire or they don’t, and firing always means one thing, always and everytwhere, and that is just .... fire. And there’s so many bigger-scale versions of that; they happen all day. When I decide not to text my dude on hinge who is really hot and who I’m sure we’d have a great time and... when I decide not to message him it’s all the inhibitions winning out and the action potential not firing. It's because I know action potentials are all or nothing, and you can’t take them back, and once you do them, you’ve crossed a certain threshold, by nedefinition, a certain energetic, electrical threshold, a voltage threshold, and now you can't go back. The toilet is flushed, you cant unflusushshshsh it. War is happening warrrr is aahapeppening war is happening war is apapapening war is happening war is happening war is happening. Yououou can’t unfire. 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We have to actually be thinking of solutions. We have to be using all this free time we have to start thinking actually THINKING, and thinking in terms of work. It’s workrkkrkkk, the kind of thinking that is actually work, the kind of thinking that is actually work, we need to be thinking, and we neeed to be doindidng it collectively. you can't just be harboring all kinds of thoughts and beliefs as an indiviudual node. How do you expect the system to respond how do you expect any soulution to be proferred when you’re operating in a closed system what are you expecting actually exactly when you do that, when you just sit there as your own solo subunit, when you just sit there, when you just sit there, what actually happens? What is actually ahpepning when you just sit there, when there is no one ever around, when you don’t share anything with anyone when you’re just living whatever this is when you just look for faces in the couch and even the faces in the couch aren’t human, and aren’t complete, and aren’t realisitiicccc; they are half-assed, three-quarters drawn, cartoon images of faces of ants. nothing more. They are not real. There is nothing real about them. Nothing real about them other than.... nothing. Tnththehrehre’s just nothinggng, right? There’s just nothing. War is happening. War is happening. Talk about it talk to you talk to someone talk talk tlak tlak tlak tlk be with people go near a person go be near a person be near someone be in real life be there go there be in the world be out in the public sphere be in the world go into the world be out in the world go into the world be around be around there you are there you go be around be around go peeeeeople bbee people go be people go peeeeople be epoeple be tothghgheterehrr and keep talking you have to keep talking until you get to a point like this where you can’t stop saying the same thing over and over. War is happening war is happening war is happening war issssss happening war is happening war is happening war is happepnign war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening. And when you talk about it enough you’ll soon all be talking about it and you know what happens after talking is action and you know what needs to happen urgently aisis action so you gotta get talking you can’t just spring into action it doesn’t work it makes more school shooters type of thing than anything else when what we neeed is organization we need soosupeprroganismsm we neeed superorganization we need to superorganize ourselves people we are a collective and we don’t act like it is,,, we are a collective and we don’t talk to each other straight, ,,, we are a collective and we don’t look each other in the eye we are a collective and we don’t kiss each other when we see each other on the street we don’t look at each other we don’t even see each other, we don’t see each other, but we need to see each other, I nneeed to see ouoyou, where are you, are you coming out? Are you coming out soon? Are you coming soon where are you where are you where are you I’m looking for you I can’t find you.... where are you? I’m anywhere you can go find me out there. Just go and I’ll be there. You’ll see. I’ll be there . but you gotta you gotta yououotuotu gogttatatatat you gottat tyou gotat Awwar is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is shappening war is happening wa riririisiss hapepening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happenignig war is happenigng war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happenging wiiairirrr is happeininging war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is hapepnignenigning gwar is hahapepning war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening whararrr is happerning. We need solutions. We are in this colony we’ve been here so long it’s insulated enough there are no bomber planes above us we have access to long lives so we need to act like it we need to act accordingly but instead we’re wasting all of our time and yes I do believe in the wasting of time sorry Fiona Apple but you might revise your thinking if you see the state of things now. You might chchhange that statement you made in waltz (better than fine). You might say something along the lines of, "I do believe in the wasting of time / and I do believe that I’m wasting mine, sometimes, by going on scrolling apps and going on hinge and thinking about sending a stupid message to some fake person who doesn't exist in my material world, risking nothing, you’re risking nothing, why don’t you just send the message?" 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I’m going to get it out and that can b e e e step one.I’m sure there are some boomerangs in me that I’ll never be able to shit out to no matter what. They’ve integrated themselves into my dna. I got boomerangs in my dna. War is happening war is hapepnign war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening war i shappening war i shappening war i shappening war is happening war is happening war is happening war is happening. Why haven’t you sent me an email yet? I don’t bite. We have to stick together. We gotta you know uhhh we gotta ummmmmm we have to uhhhh you know, we have to you know what I’m saying like we have to uhhhhh we gotta you know we gotta. I have this thing with attachment where I worry that i get attached too fast, but that’s the secret. That’s what I need. That’s what we neeed. Here, get attached to me. And then let’s become something bigger than ourselves. iiiii’m easily attached because I have to be because I want to be because I am because it’s important weeeeeeeeee have to attach. Weeeee can’t be wasting our time you feeefeeel it right you feel it passing?? I n I ii iknow you do I know we all feel it it’s the one thing we all seem to feel , we all know how it feels, we all feel it happening, you know it’s happening, and it’s going, and we have this setup...this unique setup... to have an interent connection to have enough time to read some shit on the internet t,t,t,o have enough time to look at the screen for so longgg with no threat of a bomber plane overhead, there's something really prilivileged about that that does not ask to be conceded but asks to be honored you have to fucking honor that thinggg you gotta honor the gifts affforded to you by modernity the most important being time........ If you’re rading this you have time and you have time and you have time and you have time and you have time and you have time and you have time and you have time and you have time and you have time and you have time. And your free will, we don’t know howowo pure that really is, and in fact it’s far from pure. If you’ve made it this far you have a version of free will that is not quite all-inclusive. It’s not DIY. You didn’t build it yourself. It’s repsondidnding to powers outside of your control. What you think is free will is probably something like free will but it is being pushed and pulled in so many directions, but ultimately only two. Push and pull, in and out, excite or inhibibiititt. Utltialitmelatelltylylylyyyyyy, your free will is the picture created by all the pixxxels of inhibit or exciteteeeeeeee,,,, and those inhibitions and exiciitations are informed by surveillance by the state, surveillance by companies, by anyone, eveven the person in the room with you. Your immediate obobservers. We’re all holding each other accountable we’re all throwing boomerangs at each other that end up hitting ourselevsevessssss right after we’ve thrown them,,,, we keeeeep boomerangs inside of us, in our stomachs and even in our dna. We keeep them all the way inside of us, some of them so secret so hidden that they won't ever come out..... they’lll stay inside of us, dormantnt, waiting for something.... Boomerangs everywhere. We gotta shit them out. If I’m offering up solutions, that would be my solution... those would be my solutions. Sotp wasting time, shit out your boomerangs, stop throwing them at other people, learn how it feels to throw a boomerang and have it come back and hit yourself, learn that feeeeling, identiy iiiiit when it happens, and memorize it, so you... maybe can fffeeeeeeeelllll how it feels........ to not do it... you canann train yourself to eventually not do it. The other solution is, ummmmmmmmm, groups. Superorganiziation. That’s maybe possibly our greatest superpower is superorganiziisisaition. The ants do it. you gotta look at some ants. You gotta really get down there and watch them no it’s not gross you gotta get up in there and see them as... fuck, I can’t look at ants for you. Just look at ants. That’s the whole way to get the, uhhh... yeah, the whole thing going. These ear my solutions. Arwrarw is ahpepening. devolve