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today i got sunburned

on my back while watching ants in the field outside ▒▒▒▒▒▒’s house like damn you really lose track of time looking at the ants doing their thing around their various meagalopoli and then suddenly you’re sunburned all over the upper part of your back mega and it’s the kind of red that sort of eclipses the brown of the freckles it’s redder than the freckles are brown that’s how you know you’re burnt up i don’t know why people continue to look at my shit or whether they’re even looking at it i actually don’t know the answer to that. are the people looking at my shit? i honestly am not sure i think the bots are looking at my shit moere than the people but again who’s to say and how could i ever know the answer to that? i don’t know the answer and may never know it....... alas... alack! i’m interested in what comes next for me like i actually don’t really know..... i don’t know what comes next and there’s excitement in there and there’s also just.... i think it’s just excitement actually yeah. and when people ask me what comes next and i have no good answer for them, there’s some shame that comes in and is like "well, ant, you should really know what you’re doing, and think how much better it would feel to be able to say 'yeah i’m ████████ █████████ i’m going to be a ████████...'" but it wouldn’t feel right i know it wouldn’t feel right i’ll turn my attention toward some other thing iiii’m not sure what it would even be the united states is so heavily resourced that any dissent is going to be totally either absorbed andddddd collapsed into meaninglessnesss, or if the act you’re planning is more radical you’ll be jailed or killed like there really is no hope if you’re just an individual person i’m sure this is why organization is a thing and why everyone is always like "i’m organizing!!! we need to organgniaze!!!" like... organize... okay great and then what. are we really going to be able to organize the entire american populace under some new shit? i don’t think so they’ve successfully divided us straight down the middle somehow and what do you think of that? ?? ?? what do you think of the fact that things are so easily obviously split down the middle constantly always these days???? it’s like.... if the dualism weren’t bad enough... havin to choose one of only two canditiadates.......... and then it’s... it’s just salt in the wounddddddd to know some oldy has no fucking clue what might be going on but will say some shit like "I HAVE ALWAYS VOTED REPLICICIAN AND ALWWAYS WILL" and itttttttttttttttttttt just... i have these moments where i think to myself how retarded the american public on average really is and it’s unfortunate because companies are preying and profiting off the humans' retardendnesss.... it’s horrible and the people are so dumb that they can’t seeeeee a reason not to be in this arrangement. i’ve totally lyyyy interalnazlied the pancopticiciocn like severely you know i’m not sure how that thought follows from the previous one but i’m sure you know, the girl reading this but man i feel like i’m uhhhhh free like i’m just salling and i’m covering jjjjjjjjjj it's how it's always beeeeeeen, yeah.... it’s so something that’s inside i'm sure i wont be able to eat all this food bruh but okay yeah if it’s good i’ll give you a high five ate it and by the time i was back at the uber iiii had my pants down and i just said "yeah bro i—----" and he stared burst out laughing... FUKCK! need to go where i’m understood, and that really really might be here and now. i love that sentiment but what if this hypothetical hot man shows up in my life and starts telling me all the things that i never thought i’d hear but can hear now ? man yahweh i might go do that as well... you're in this housefoilersss...yes joey anddd koo do i owe her anything right now i honestly can't tell but i do feel like she’s always keeiping osome king ojjjjj talking about golf with somebody's dad ugh get that golf away from my face, get those wayyyy away from my face akeria chanel davenport condragulaajjjjj i wish.... something about the unaobomber, and it was connected to this guy who had aaa storage unit kind t’so yeah new york still love you it’s been a while since i’ve been in you but i’ll be back but there’ll be no or very little premeditation because i’m in the business of holding onto lessons that i feel are for me and m jjjjjj that guy touching your hair, i’ll ask her. he your boyfriend? no, she’llj unearth that american flag so you can burn it jk wouldn’t joke about that. but seriously what are you drinking? lol just kidding idk what she even means by that. but yeah i’m just like..j okay i gotta be done i'm ti-ti... see ya laterzszz sweet dreams i know you’ll have some! well know is such a strong word isn’t it?