cult of professionalism
Iiiiii cant do it anyommore I cant do it anymore professionalism I cant do professionalism no more professional envrionments not even interpersonally i cant be a professional I’m sick of proessffeessional development I’m ready to be done with it no more professionalism let me out I’m not want ing it.
A dddreeaaaaaaam of holding it tgogoether some white woman talking over my shoulder I had tooooo crannen my neck and look nbehind bmfe to get a good view at her she was being so mean to me she was being so mean to mea she was being so meanto me nothing is aid was working I tried professionalism it didn’t work she said I was a narcissist. When she wasleked away I unplugged my keyboard from mmy computer, the work computer at the work desk in a computer lab of sorts, and I threw it at a wall, nad I started screaming I started screaming and I did it for longer than I eve r have in a dream.
dream killer
I was screaming in the way hwere youre sucking in instead of exhaling. It was screams of inhalation it was not externalizing it was internalizing screams but I still lert my voice be heard I still screamed I iddnt care I iddnt think about it until I was a few ssxs creams in and then I lookoed at t he clock, iwas alone in an apartment again, and it was two in the morning, and wouldn’t I wake the neighbords... .and that was all, that was alllllllll,,,,,,,,, that was all. That was all that was all that was all that was all that was all that was all, that was all that was all that was all that was all that was all that was all that was the whoele thing that was it. The woman looked like s▒▒▒▒▒ the neonatologist. She looked like s▒▒▒▒▒.
Professionalism is over. Stop that. Stop progfessionalism. Nno more profeessssional. It is time to burn that bridge I would like to not be a professsssional any longer. I’m not a professional ... stop it. Stop professionalism. Stop it. It is a plague a curse on the nation stop professionalism. Stop it right now stop professionlalism stop it stop it stop it.... formality stop iiiiiiiiiiit toooo stop the whole thing please stop the whole entire thing please ii’m tired of this please let it end please stop please stop pleases top lplease stop please stop leplase stop llase stop it oiii’m done let it end please let it end please let it t enenennddd please stop it ptplpease stop please stop please stop pleases stop pleases top sopt sotp stop stops tops optsotsotpst osptsotps topno more I acna’t scream I can’t tttttt haveee it I cdcant live a livfe where I scream in dreams I cant do it oiii wont put myself through ti anymore I don’t want any more professionalism I cant do it we cant do it I’m not I cant I cant we’re not doigng it.
Tuche cult of professionalism will b eleft behind has been eleft behind and will open new ideas new concepts will be unlocked as soon as we can let go of theeeee crippling debilitatitng fear of saying wrong thing we willlllll come into our new human being. I am trained, I have ben trained, I have been successfully psyopped, their work has worked on me, I have started to see the bars of the cage, I see them now, the dreams point them out to meeee, the dreams are important, they neeed to give voice to the feeligns I have repressed the feelings I didn’t know I felt until I dreamed about s a certain very speiiciifc scneeneario and now I know how I feel, now I know how it feeeeels, now I know. How I feeele. No more professionalism I can’t do it anymore no more no more no more no more nomr eonro orm eo nro moren o moren o moren o more no omremore no more nore moren roemerormn ore moren o moreno rmeonroemroenroem nromemroerneomroermerno more no more.
It’s a cage that we put ourselves in, they see that we will just do it ourselves, dsddddddo oi toursselves, we put ourselves into the cage, but they also put ius in there,, we are just working wtiht htem to put it in we work with them we put ourselves in the cage we collaoborate with them to put ourselves in a cage we work with them to put ourselves in a cage we work together we are willing accomplices in our own improiisssonment we have become instrumentalize d against our own wishes and better judgment and subconscious and dream selvese we have put our dream selves in prisons and they feel they must reach out ot us in the plot driven world ofd reams they have to communicate with us somehow and that is their chosen method of communication.
No more professionalism I’m terrrrrified of it it makes me scream, the screams are not anything but terror they are ntoo anhyting but primal they are primal terrorrr rscreams they are scared I am scared. I ams cared it makes mes cared being in those enbivirrinoemnets.
I can’t be in those enbrionemtns I cant’ be a professisonali. Ic an’t be. Aworking professional I can’t be a working professional I cant do it I cant do the professionaliiiiinenennviriornemnt I can’t do professional environment I can’t be in professional environment I can’t be in one I can’t do it I own’t be in a professional envrionemnt I can’t be osmewhereerere ic an’t scream I cant’t od I titt ti havacant do those I cant be in those envrionemnts I cant be respectable I cant thave the game of respectability and its fake and meaningless respectability is possible on difffffffffffferererenenenntnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnt paths I iii I I. I I I I I iii I I I I I I I I I I I I ii I I I I I I. I I I I I I I find it hard to elave it’s hard to leave the cult of professionalism it’s relaly hard to leave I’ve internalized it so much the mindset iiiii’v ienteralized the professional mindset so much it’s inteeeeeernalizddd successsfulllly it’s a huge failure to have done it but it’s’ true I internalized the shit out of it I’ve internalized ti all I have internalzid all of it I’ve internalized thewhoel thing I’ve internalized it and all that has happened o mtm my indsides after internalizeing it is that they wantto dscreami want to scream so baddd I scream iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii still need tos cream even though school is over tehs creams still need to dfind d ovioiceec somewhere and the only place for it issss in dreams it might be eefidnigngnga Voice on a dance floor but is that environment even too professional I neeed to get out. No more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no moer no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more no more nomore no more no rmeo nor emo nor emo mreorneroe nro mroemoe rneor meor neor meor noe mreo rem renorem roe mr om nro meor m eno erno meor mom reomren rome orme or no m no more nor meo rne o eno rneo nroe nro emr meo more mr emr eno nroe nroe nroe mre mro mo. Non om r mer e orrmrmrrrmrmrmrrmmrmrmrmmrmrmrmrmrrmmrrmmrrmmrmrmrm noon on onono no o n on n. no n o n o oo n n nn nn nnnn onoooonoonoo on o oooo omrmrmrmrrrmrmr mrrr rmrmrmrmmr mrmmmmmrm mmmmmr mrrrmr rmrrrrr mrrr rmr on on ooo non more rnoe nro emro enro emrn eor men roe mr nono mormeor noerm omeor neo more norm eorm no moern onor meom ren orno mreo nro eo mroer no more nore more moemreor.
Stop. Stop!!!! Stop s..... stop .
grab yourself
by the shoulders.
No one else will
do it for you.
Grab yourself by your own shoulders look yourself in the eyes and allow yourself to look back for long enough to hear it. No more. N o more no more n mo mroer e sSTOP. Stop stop sotp it stop it stop it.
Professionalism is everwyerhere that’s a big problem. It’s everywhere it’s in the shows we watch. It’s in everything. The cscreeeen is our device for interalizaianignggggggg professionalismsmsmm for putting our collars on. Theeee screens, the sccreeesn bro, the fscreeens theeeeee screeeeens.
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.... iiiiiii......... no. no............ nothing.
get dumber