it's cold as shit. it's still the morning. it's still getting warmer for the day. i'm all bundled up right now and my fingers have gone quite rigid. i'm slower at typing now. no fluidity that we felt in the summertime. no summer love, nothing of the sort. nothing like that. nothing like it, at all, in the slighest bit or degree.... NOTHING! there is just nothing. lights on npoboboodydyduyy home, lights dimming..... huh. but i'm going to do the same stuff that i usually do. right now, so far, today, i've done nothing that i haven't done all summer. my days are much the same, i'm just less socialized. i'm just seeing fewer people. and i know that i always feel better after seeing folks, individuals, i know this, and so i will let the socializing happen as it happens. i will let it happen as it happens.... let it happen as it happens.... let it happen as it happens........ and then?