hhhhhhhey i'm back. i’m going to make it not about me.

the ants haven’t been in the megalopolis in a while. thinking about, you know, uhh...

i made it about me.

the ants, where are they? are they underground? are they warm enough? do they slow down at all? thhhheeyyyyyyy are probably, ummmm, they are probably down underground, deep underground. they might have little chambers that they make for the winter, they might have their own traditions. they might have wings of their underground megalopolis that are christmas rooms, they might have places where they go.

ants might also get intoxicated. perhaps they had foragers bringing them all kinds of drugs to keeeeeeeep them busy during the winter. because otherwise what is there to do, really? what is there for ants to do during the winter? can they get high? i hope they find a way to do it. they’ve worked all summer to get all their supplies ready for winter, and now might be the time to enjoy the fruits of their labor. right? do you think?

the ants are hopefully enjoying the fruits of their labor right now. they are enjoying the fruits of their labor while the humans around them, the humans who were around them during the summer.... don’t go outside for very long at all, and when they do they have to bundle up, and even then, sometimes, they’ll go for a walk and feel perfectly warm but also feel that kind of adrenaliney feeling where you know you’re in danger just by being outside. it’s something in the way you can see your breath and you let your imagination run wild imagining ummmm.....

sorry . there's a music video playing on tv right now. step into my life by jessie ware. i fucking love this already. please let me keep watching. it’s just this kind of ugly looking guy in a bowling alley, but he has some kind of strange sex appeal like lowkey iiiiiiiiiiiiiii kinda need him.... he’s doing this muscle thing...... oh my god the choreography is fucking cool. this guy is like... he’s got it going on. i wonder if jessie is going to show up for this video at all or if it’s just going to be this gay boy dancer ? this is honestly fab as fuck. like this is fucking fab as shit. the camera person and the dancer are both like eating the house down the fuck..... oh my god this is so sexy bro...... holy shit i’m like actually sat for this shit. i’m sat as fuck..... the way this man is moving is so sexy to me. this is so fucking sick.... he’s dancing and he’s letting so loose right now he’s letting the fuck loose like he’s got on this fucking awesome outfit... oh my god and the way he moves his body is fucking beautiful and glorious like this guy seems like he’s been trained in ballet because some of this shit is insane... that was a fucking ten out of ten video bro that was fucking awesome. i was in a flow state watching that shit. beautiful. i love music bro that reminded me.

i’m getting slowly worse and worse at being in touch with my parents via text like i’m not really addressing some things they say as much anymore ummmmmmmm.....

back to the ants..... i’m hoping the ants are having a good time out there. i’m sure they’ve figured it out. i’m not worried about them. i don’t hope anything for them, actually, in fact. i’m sure that.....

well, no, i take myself out of it. i take my ego out of it altogether. it doesn't have to be about me. let's just study.