Okay, i’m back, and we’re back. It’s nice to be back. I like Y---, of course. What a nice guy. He’s just here doing his thing. Wait.... The thing O-- said about how twenty-four hour shifts in the nick you have a
Maybe he was onto something.... It’s kinda nice to still be here.... I’m here, and no one else is here (except Y---), and i can totally see how one might enjoy that.
Y--- and I were talking about how
in the newborns to more of an extent than we realize, in a seed, on a smaller scale than anyone seems to think is possible.
He was also saying how they did 'exit procedure' on the baby with the tumor because they.... Well, exit procedure is when you intubate the baby before it’s fully out of the birth canal, and that’s kinda crazy to me.
It’s a sign, actually, of the interventionism at its most neurotic. We want this baby to live so badly that we’re willing to put a tube inside of its throat before it's even out.
damn damn damn. And then when you see it on google images it’s touted as a miracle and shit. Come on now. That’s not a miracle, that is a perversion.
It reminds me of the paper discussing whether it’s better to intervene on a myelomeningocele in utero or after birth. The authors seemed to be arguing that it's better to do a prenatal operation. But then it makes the baby more likely to get born preterm, and then the baby has more need for follow-up. There was something about how more operations might be needed in the future, too. And that’s when i start to think, "Oh, so you’re just making someone totally reliant on medicine forever."
Y--- just said that in life you either get it right or you learn. He said that's part of the mindset you need to develop in order to be a functional doctor. You have to be quite ready to turn your Ls into lessons at all times.
This feels like study hall or parallel play or something. We’re both here working on our respective stuff and intermittently speaking words into the space between us. I’m here writing this, and Y--- is there writing chats to nurses and orders and notes and whatever else. It’s almost 6 pm. It's been almost 12 hours since i got here. And i’m simply having the time of my life.
You know what i’m going to do, actually, is order takeout from [thai place], and then i’ll bring it home, and i’ll have a takeout container that i can use in the future.
Y--- said that he put in an order and the nurse immediately told him it’s wrong, so he had to come back here and adjust the order. It’s so funny that this is just his job. He’s just kinda here, doing shit.
He said that being in this on-call room reminds him of when he had a studio in med school. This really is pretty much just a studio. And it’s a bunkbed setup..... The ladder is maroon metal and so is the frame of the bed, except the sides are birch wood, and it has stickers on it. The furthest left sticker says
and has a little cutesy spiderman cartoon, and then to the right of that is elmo and cookie monster in cartoon form, and then to the right of that is a little cat with his head comically slightly enlarged, and then to the right of THAT is a sticker of elmo riding a skateboard. Funny how i've never looked closely at these things, just processed them in the background.
I'm sure if i were to somehow ever
do a twenty-four hour shift in this room, i would at some point want to take stock of the entire room and defamiliarize it all. Looking at the little placard on the door and seeing how it’s laminated and says “YELLOW resident TEAM,” and there are two different fonts happening, one of which is nicely, classily serifed, and then the word 'resident' is written in what looks like calibri. Yeah, that’s for sure calibri. And there’s clipart of a syringe with a heart on it to the left of the word 'yellow,' clipart of a stethoscope to the right of the word 'yellow,' what looks like a yellow first-aid kit to the left of the word 'resident,' and to the right of the word 'resident' (which is written in black text with a drop-shadow in yellow, seemingly, which is actually a nice and really classy touch, my compliments to the chef) is the medicine logo, the one that looks like a spiral with a snake, seemingly, and then wings at the top. Who the hell designed that logo, and why? And then to the left of the word 'team' is a lab coat clipart, and to the right, a mask clipart.
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